Losing My Money

The crash was inevitable.

It happened after living that crazy life for about two years.

First I lost my money and then my party ‘friends’. It’s a normal sequence of events by the way but it took me thirty years to understand that.

When your money is gone, your life suddenly gets a lot lonelier.

I stumbled into a full blown depression and for a while I thought there was no way out.

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But the one true friend that I had left, shocked me back into existence and forced me to take my life back.

I desperately had to discover who I was and I needed to figure out my purpose in life.

I was floating around aimlessly because I had neglected my spiritual side.

That was killing me.

I started going on long walks.

Practising For Real

That was the only thing I could think of.

I didn’t know about meditation and mindfulness back then but I had experienced ‘something’ a couple of times when walking all alone in nature.

I sometimes felt some kind of ‘bliss’ while being out there but it only lasted for seconds.

I was intrigued though and I starting to research what I thought it was.

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That’s how I stumbled across meditation and mindfulness and I started to practice it for real.

That happened about five years ago now.

And day by day, I managed to get rid of the cobwebs in my head and find some peace.

But that was only the start.

Heaven On Earth

Now I’m really cruising.

If anything, I have to slow down a bit now.

I have been so obsessed by spirituality and being ‘out there’ that I’m overdoing it. I now have to focus on the daily stuff a bit more and regain my balance.

It’s extremely hard to care about paying bills if you can experience the universe’s unconditional love every time you want to.

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But the ultimate power is being able to balance the physical and the spiritual.

Too many people only care about the physical.

They are the ones getting depressed, burned out and manipulated into compliance.

But on the other hand, a lot of people only care about the spiritual and they’re too out there to get anything done here on earth.

If we are to establish heaven on earth, we need people skilled in both realms.

We need to be ‘in this world’ and not ‘of this world’ at the same time.

That’s the hard part.

The last couple of days were life-changing.

I experienced the universe in all its glory and I’m starting to understand the true nature of reality.

Everything’s gonna be alright.

The moment you truly believe this, you can never go back.

Take it from an honest fool.